The Master by Colm Toibin

Putting the life of the mind before the affairs of the heart.

Last Last Night...

I turned off the computer and checked everything before lying down when I saw in astonishment the wall near my bed, I saw some sparsely lights scattered around the wall. I felt glad to see that light in that time of my night, because mostly I would spend it lying on my bed, seeing nothing when I'm done doing stuffs and the lights were closed. Plainly nothing, it feels like my eyes are closed but it's weird because my eyes are open and staring at nothing but complete darkness, and vice versa; that's how dark my room is. Then I lied down and looked back at the window, pretty Moon ;] with it's really big round head, staring at my room shooting moonlights. Though staring back at her gave me some sad thoughts, still she's one of the pretty things I've ever seen in this world.

Optimists

Optimists have less pain in life. Because they avoid hurts, they avoid negative things. And yes my bestfriend agreed that it's good to be an optimist but she said that we have to be real. And being realistic can either give you joy or sadness.
Seeing things positively is one way of taking half of the part of being a realist.

And if ever a person would be a complete realist, I'll bet this person would find herself tired of seeing things the way they really are.

Love's?

"Is it love?

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't love, it's like.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off them, am I right?
It isn't love, it's lust.

Are you proud and eager to show them off?
It isn't love, it's pride.

Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't love, it's loneliness.

Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't love, it's loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you, and held your hand?
It isn't love, it's confidence.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't wanna hurt them?
It isn't love, it's pity.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't love, it's infatuation.

Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a lie.

Are you willing to give everything or even your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't love, it's charity."

If you were to ask me, I'd say real love is wherein setting a person free and wishing him/her happiness, and not forcing them to love you or expecting them to love you back.
Sometimes it's just about letting go and moving on.
Sometimes it's just waiting but not expecting, there's a difference.

*Anonymous

My heart

You sliced a big part of my cake heart. :|

Living Life

You can either leave it to fate or make your own decision. It's your life that you complete and a choice you make.
Leaving it to fate sometimes mean that you already lost the hope of holding onto something that's important for you, or it can also mean that you decide things without enthusiasm, taking up things halfheartedly. Or maybe you're just not brave enough choose what's best and what's not for you.; Making choices sometimes mean that you believe in yourself and believing in yourself is simply trusting everything you do and having enough courage to accept the possibilities of good and bad consequences that may result.

It can either be by fate or by choice. It's your life, you decide.

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